I just want to feel someone’s touch, to feel their skin against mine, to run my fingers through their hair and feel their breath against my neck…
Recently I’ve been getting a stronger and stronger urge to try a male to female transformation. NOT a sex change, just the makeup and clothes and such. I’ve always wanted to sort of, but like I said. Lately it’s something that ive reeeeally wanted.
I think a lot. About what has happened. What’s happening. And what’s going to happen. I think about you. I think about myself (a lot). But when I do think about myself…it’s never quite right unless your there in the thought with me. It’s as if I know you should be there, and that it’s fate for us to be together. I have a hard time finding love and true quality connections. But I know that ours will be the strongest of them all. Without you I feel so meaningless and insignificant as if I don’t exist. So please, do us both a favor and find me so I can find you.
I don’t get emotional very much, but when I do, it’s so intense I almost can’t handle it. Like when I get sad, I pretty much slip into depression. When I get angry, I literally can picture myself stabbing the hell out of you. but the worst of them all to me is when I get lonely. It’s as if there’s a huge amount of weight on my chest, yet im completely hollow, and I feel numb and concentrate on anything else. I can just feel tears forming constantly and I feel as if the world has just turned gray and nothing has life too it anymore.
I am extremely sensitive to touch. especially on my lower back and stomach. its like electricity just shoots throughout my body. and you can see my muscles ripple and i get major chills. and i have to admit, id choose touching over making out anyday.
I want sex. ALLLLL the time.
I have the hots for our Hungarian exchange student Mark. Bright blue eyes…he is just drop dead gorgeous. And he plays piano, and he is totally a thinker. You can just tell by the way he just seems so relaxed and just stares off into space…but not in a zoned out kind of way. anyway. stopping being creepy and stalkerish.
I have commitment issues
I realllly like to dance and listen to dance music. I just feel really bad at it and embarrased.
I am faaar to lazy for my intelligence.
I suffer from a lot of anxiety. I get really worried and unnecessarily uneasy whenever I’m doing stuff. especially when I am “talking” to a guy. I always hope that person will understand that I don’t try to be so clingy or worried. It just happens and I try my best to not let it affect me.
I love skin. The way it looks. The way it feels, tastes, smells. Its my favorite part of the human body.
I may look happy all the time on the outside. but beneath my skin is raging torrent of emotions that, when it overflows, is extremely detrimental. im emotionally unstable and afraid no one will want me because of it.
I Dance in the shower and anywhere I can without someone looking. However I know I am no good, therefore it never happens around others.